This is an entry in a journal of someone, somewhere, sometime. It's not of importance anymore, it may have been at a certain point in a life, but most likely, considering the way it is written, it wasn't. Atleast not to whom wrote it.
'Ride with me. Everyone is screaming. Gone without a trace. I am that who is hiding under your bed.'
How I wish I was that. To inflict terror into the hearts of those who ignored my potential. I wish nothing more than to be appreciated, but my reputation as a person destroyed my ideals in the arts. I was a nice person. I was an overly happy person, one who everyone thought too nice, too goofy, too immature to be taken seriously. I hate it. If I could, i would take all that which makes me seem like this to them and bury it deep into the earth.
Not a one takes me seriously. I am taken for granted, as always. I hate how the young I call my friends can be smarter than I, better than I, taken seriously, unlike myself. It is most unbecoming.
You have no idea how hard it is to work your entire life and then when you are ready to be judged, the ones who have not worked harder than you get the merit. Perhaps they are all truly better than I, but is it necessary to rub it in my face so blatantly? Unlikely.
I put so much of my life's energy into what I do, and still I am under the impression that while some enjoy me, they laugh at all my ambitions when I speak of them.
What do I do about this? If I could, I would leave this place in a heartbeat. It holds nothing to me. However, I am afraid of leaving home, as are all creatures at first, because while I may not be appreciated here, I would not know how I am there. Nobody tells me my work is bad or distasteful here, because everyone just throws a glance over it and laughs at me when I tell them of my dreams.
I suppose until I have more ideas to come up with I should just grit my teeth and take what comes to me.


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My name is Katy. I'm a girl living in Deadmonton. Canada. I like alot of things but I am obsessed with... Jack@$$ & Wildboyz, Will Ferrell, Nathan Petrelli, Tetris, Stephen King, Gintama, Shaman King/Tao Ren, Final Fantasy, Abe Sapien, Our Lady Peace, Reno, Colorado, South Park/Kyle Broflovski, AHTA, Maximum Ride, werewolves > aliens & Transformers/Hot Shot. Eric Idle. MEWTWO I listen to Nickelback while playing Final Fantasy, and Finger Eleven while playing Kingdom Hearts. I'm also terrified of aliens.